The little things in life mean the greatest things to you in the world.

As always it’s another crazy day in the life of where’s the candles, you can be sure it is very crazy but non the less it is just another good day. With just under a basket ball team I have come to the understanding that chaos is always going to be an underlining factor in my life.  I have always been a very strong person and with another deployment just around the corner I know that strength is going to have to get me through it again. I am the sole provider for my five children and my husband when it comes to emotional support I am the one with the burden. My husband is about to deploy for the second time, if all goes well with his injured back from his last Iraq deployment. Then he will deploy, break down the units, and bring back our fellow sons, daughters, mothers, fathers, and etc’s but we never know what will happen with the U.S. Army. It is always a hurry up and wait kind of game. Do not get me wrong I truly love my country but at times I find it hard to love the government that runs our country. I am a disabled U.S. American and I pride myself everyday that I will get better and be employed like everyone else at my dream job; which at this moment is in the forensic field. I have been working diligently since April of last year (2010) on my Associates in Criminal Justice. I plan to continue on and get my bachelors but with the five children and a very limited income the student loans are eating away at the little bit of nest egg we do have, so it will be awhile before I will be able to achieve this dream. As for my husband his dreams will be set aside while he fights for everyone’s freedoms. He to was attending college but because he will be traveling around overseas he will not have as much access to internet and will not be able to link up to college and finish his Associates till he returns to the states. Another soldier putting everyone elses needs first before their own with little to no recognition for their efforts. As for my five children and their sacrifices they will not go unrecognized I will do all I can so they know how much they are loved and cared for while their father fights for their freedoms, traditions, and values. As for all the chaos they do cause me there is love and caring that comes out of all the chaos that they do bring me on a daily basis. I care to know what will happen over then year and how strong the ties in our little family will become as we grow together. I know we will cherish every moment together but it will be very hard for us as we live in a hard times. Everyone everywhere is struggling with something whether it is family, money, or just life itself. I know I have struggle with each one individually or all at once. As I said earlier I am a strong woman, I have grown up in an environment where both of my parents where infected of HIV, I lost my father at nine and my mother is a 22 year survivor of HIV/AIDS. I saw both my parents struggle with addiction my mother recovered my father didn’t. I am a child of divorce and yet I have grown into a blossoming marriage of 11 years but been with my husband 15 years so life does have its perks. These little things (memories) in life support us and show us that we can achieve things and I plan on showing my children over this next year if we unit we can and will survive this deployment. As for where’s the candles I am plan on graduating top of my class going on for an internship, paying of the student loans, and achieving great things. I can only advice you to live strong, work hard, and love the little things in life you never know what small things will grant you the big advantages in life.